“Tonight, she’s just trying to forget someone who was never worth the love she gave.” – r.h. sin
I came across this quote tonight and it made me pause – but not because it reminded me of a romantic partnership. It made me reflect on my personal relationships. A lot of them have felt very hard recently. I feel like I show up as authentically me to only feel judged. I’ve walked away from conversations and texts and found myself saying to myself “I need to move away from this” or, worse, “I shouldn’t be talking. I should stop talking.” I would never, ever, want any of you to say that to yourself – why is it so easily coming up in my thoughts?
I’ve done the “smell test” on this. I’ve reflected, purged, cried, stared at a wall, journaled….I‘ve done the work to ask “is this just me?” “Is this just my limited belief?” But I’ve had an overwhelming, instinctive sense of NO. No it’s not just me. While I am sure I play a part, it’s not all in my head.
I am sure you’ve felt this way, too.
