I think everyone is hitting a wall with quarantine this week. I am, you are, we all are.
The first 30 days are behind us. We’ve all had moments of being okay, not being okay, feeling hopeful, and feeling doomsday (sometimes in the same day…or in the same moment).
And now, with most schools closed indefinitely and more and more restrictions, we are settling into the uncertainty that we don’t actually know when this will end.
We don’t know when we will return to “normal life” or what “normal life” will look like.
We don’t know much of anything.
Monotony is here and we’re feeling like we’ve hit our limit.
I’ve heard and felt this static energy in almost all of my sessions this week.
The daily structure is out the window. The pandemic plans are in the garbage. The weeks are long. The weekends are longer.
We have more much time but we can’t seem to get anything done.
There is not enough banana bread we can bake to feel like a person.
I’m with you. I broke down on Sunday. I broke down on Tuesday. I feel like it is starting to hit me and the walls are closing in a bit.
I haven’t been productive the last few weekends because I could not get out of my own way. The only thing I felt like I could do was go on long walks outside and escape…
But not getting anything done has taken a toll on my integrity. And every day I have a list of things I don’t accomplish.
So since breakdown #2, I have decided that I need to start treating myself with a little more ease and a little more authenticity.
It doesn’t mean that I don’t do the things I said I would do.
It does mean that I need to be realistic about what I can get done and what I need to feel okay (cue: less virtual anything…).
AND it means I need to do the things that actually set me up to be as successful as possible. Make the list. Prep the food. Clean the things. Get the workout in.
So if I make the choice to binge watch Married at First Sight, it feels like a choice, and not like the only option available to me.
What do you need to do to return back to yourself? How can you hit reset?
