A theme in session this week is: society says X, I feel Y, and now I am doing X when I want to do Z, but instead I am doing X and feeling like crap.
Not giving a shit about what society thinks is really hard. We are literally taught to think a specific way, from specific people, and often our parents tell us who our role models are before we have enough of a brain to decide for ourselves.
Give yourself the space to get out on paper what you really want. Give yourself the opportunity to speak about what you really want to yourself. That way, if you decide to go along with what society wants, it is a CHOICE and not a REQUIREMENT.